Changing of the season

So I thought the title, Changing of the Season
as a perfect name of it...

So Today while i was laying in the sun working on my tan

I realized how much I have changed just in this last year

• from my style in clothes
• how i act
• my beliefs

and it intrested me

I remember how i went threw the "punk" phase for a year in highschool
when i use to just wear all sports stuff
and now, going to girly stuff
yeah i still have my sporty side, and actaully righ tnow im wearing my Michael Jordan Chicago Bulls jersey haha
but just before, during the day i was dressed girly
i cant leave the house w/o make up on
i always match
always have matching jewerly
and my purse has to go well with it
i got my desinger stuff

To me, it just looked like im opening up to new stuff
but really, im changing.

I remember, just couple months ago (maybe 4-5)
how I was thinking "psh. screw waiting till marriage for sex who cares"
and now, im glad I didnt give it to Sam
i think about it now, and Im glad i never did it.
Now i reazlied, yeah im going to wait till marriage
im not going to take the chanse n get a STD or something
Maybe even a baby, even though im on the pill
but still. Now im glad. it is something special for someone special
Im not going to jsut give it to anyone
im glad i reazlied that before it was to late.
and yeah. the pain just doesnt sound pleasent. ahhaha

and I reazlied something, now im like yay drinking!
and double yeah in less than a month(on aug 21) ill be 21
Heck tot he yes
but than i think about it..
i prolly like drinking more now, b/c im not suppost to
once i turn 21, id prolly be like..okay..um.. yay?
because i know me. i get bored easy.
who knows i guess We will see about it
buttttt thats what i think

I remember junior year in highschool i wouldnt drink. i was against it
and same in senior year
Mostly b/c of my mom.
i see her drink 24/7 and i had to deal with it
all the yelling and horrible name calling
everything she did to me & my family
i didnt like being around people who drank, and i wouldnt
it has tought me on how to grow up faster
and not to drink so much, which i dont
i do to just baout when i know im drunkish than i stop
i do not want to be like my mom. shes the last person id ever want to be like

So now you can see how the title works well with this.

noww..i dunno what to write hahha
so i think ill end..i let it all out :) lol

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